Heineken Green
4:55
Finished my first beer of the day because i've heard that it takes the edge off... but as i've grown older there are many less edges on me and i wonder how many more do i have left?
I have matching flatware, matching dishes and glasses that match the dishes- i am married. This has always seemed strange to me but i feel pretty good about the whole thing-I'm waiting for our towels to match and to have a dust ruffle, a bedroom suite and shams- i'm not even sure what one is but i fear its arrival more than i fear the arrival of my child.
A son or daughter or both or 3 of each who knows anymore?
Mine- i've reproduced or at least completed some of the most basic elements of reproduction... my wife is pregnant with our child.
Almost inconceivable!
Me married.
Me a father.
Me- I- Bob who has traveled to some of the strangest places, met some of the strangest people and some of the best for that matter...I, who has conquered many, pursued more and lost all but one.The enormity of the, well of everything still shocks, stuns and puzzles me- to me nothing has ever been small or trivial (excepting maybe bills) the interconnectedness of all things i've tried to fathom, to seek the path in chaos to stare into abyssi (plural fo abyss?)
I have a dog and a 401k and i'm looking to buy a mattress and its not really i any longer everything is We and the we keeps expanding.
We go to the beach every year, we send thank you notes and visit people because of arbitrary dates on a calendar- not because we felt like driving.
We have budgets, saving accounts, spreadsheets- i haven't had to scrounge for change in years- i wouldn't even know where to start because We keep all the change in a giant jar.I'm not unhappy... very far from it.
I love my family, i love the idea of having a family and a home and security- its just odd is all...its just all very odd.
5:16
getting another beer.
Finished my first beer of the day because i've heard that it takes the edge off... but as i've grown older there are many less edges on me and i wonder how many more do i have left?
I have matching flatware, matching dishes and glasses that match the dishes- i am married. This has always seemed strange to me but i feel pretty good about the whole thing-I'm waiting for our towels to match and to have a dust ruffle, a bedroom suite and shams- i'm not even sure what one is but i fear its arrival more than i fear the arrival of my child.
A son or daughter or both or 3 of each who knows anymore?
Mine- i've reproduced or at least completed some of the most basic elements of reproduction... my wife is pregnant with our child.
Almost inconceivable!
Me married.
Me a father.
Me- I- Bob who has traveled to some of the strangest places, met some of the strangest people and some of the best for that matter...I, who has conquered many, pursued more and lost all but one.The enormity of the, well of everything still shocks, stuns and puzzles me- to me nothing has ever been small or trivial (excepting maybe bills) the interconnectedness of all things i've tried to fathom, to seek the path in chaos to stare into abyssi (plural fo abyss?)
I have a dog and a 401k and i'm looking to buy a mattress and its not really i any longer everything is We and the we keeps expanding.
We go to the beach every year, we send thank you notes and visit people because of arbitrary dates on a calendar- not because we felt like driving.
We have budgets, saving accounts, spreadsheets- i haven't had to scrounge for change in years- i wouldn't even know where to start because We keep all the change in a giant jar.I'm not unhappy... very far from it.
I love my family, i love the idea of having a family and a home and security- its just odd is all...its just all very odd.
5:16
getting another beer.
posted by bobwalkup | 5:24 PM
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